Really lah...
We live and we learn.
Yesterday, learned a thing or two about dreams and surprisingly, about that letting go bit too. And about making choices. Right, responsible choices.
Today, learned a thing about initiative and about controlling one's tongue. And keeping temper in check. Humility too.
Evidently, I've a looooooooooooooooooong way to go. xD
Had a photoshoot today. It was supeeeeerrr random. Eeek. Hopefully it's okay? LOL
Deciphering people is hard. VERY. Especially when emotions come to play. Oh well. :D
Monday, November 30, 2009
Friday, November 27, 2009
SC and CF
Was part of the SAM Student Council and Taylor's Christian Fellowship when I'm not in classrooms or hanging out with the books.
Met new people, turned friends. They're AWESOME lah. And their dedication...inspiring. :)
In the CF, I feel that their passion is just so encouraging and their just so supportive. I've found real friends in them. It's just so nice to be reminded that I'm not alone in this walk. Love these brothers and sisters in Christ. :)
Got some pretty cool experiences in the SC and CF :D:D
Learned some stuff about my jobscopes in both and stuff about people.
Grew in my walk in the CF.
CAMP WAS THE BOMB!
Yea, I'm blessed to be in both groups. My college life wouldn't be as awesome if it weren't for the SC and CF. LOVE THEM!!! :)
Met new people, turned friends. They're AWESOME lah. And their dedication...inspiring. :)
In the CF, I feel that their passion is just so encouraging and their just so supportive. I've found real friends in them. It's just so nice to be reminded that I'm not alone in this walk. Love these brothers and sisters in Christ. :)
Got some pretty cool experiences in the SC and CF :D:D
Learned some stuff about my jobscopes in both and stuff about people.
Grew in my walk in the CF.
CAMP WAS THE BOMB!
Yea, I'm blessed to be in both groups. My college life wouldn't be as awesome if it weren't for the SC and CF. LOVE THEM!!! :)
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Small decisions
As if one lenghty post wasn't enough for the day.... xD
Should I? I mean, it seems like the right thing to do right? In fact, it makes COMPLETE sense to do it!
Complete sense, if it wasn't for ONE reason.
Okay, so maybe there are several excuses, but there is only one real reason.
And it's not a small reason la, to me anyway.
But the reason to do it is big too! Way bigger. But the reason not to do it seems more tangible because if I do it, well, it's tangible immediately la.
Perhaps it boils down to how big the real me sees the reason to do it is.
A minor decision, yes. But the decision would tell me a lot about myself and what my stands are, and how strong they are and if you want to dig deeper, what kind of a person I am. And I suppose it's true that if a person can't make the right choice and make a stand regarding small and very 'duh' matters, what more big matters?
As much as I want to do the right thing, I also can't help but consider the reason to 'run' from this.
So what is it going to be?
It's one strong reason to do it versus one strong reason not to do it.
This is where I really decide.
Which, mz? Which is bigger? Which is more important? Which is more significant?
And unlike so many decisions one has to make, the answer to this is plain and obvious.
The problem was never deciding what I should do.
The problem, however, is taking that leap into doing something I wouldn't want to do and would avoid at all cost if not for this ONE big reason to do it.
Help?
Should I? I mean, it seems like the right thing to do right? In fact, it makes COMPLETE sense to do it!
Complete sense, if it wasn't for ONE reason.
Okay, so maybe there are several excuses, but there is only one real reason.
And it's not a small reason la, to me anyway.
But the reason to do it is big too! Way bigger. But the reason not to do it seems more tangible because if I do it, well, it's tangible immediately la.
Perhaps it boils down to how big the real me sees the reason to do it is.
A minor decision, yes. But the decision would tell me a lot about myself and what my stands are, and how strong they are and if you want to dig deeper, what kind of a person I am. And I suppose it's true that if a person can't make the right choice and make a stand regarding small and very 'duh' matters, what more big matters?
As much as I want to do the right thing, I also can't help but consider the reason to 'run' from this.
So what is it going to be?
It's one strong reason to do it versus one strong reason not to do it.
This is where I really decide.
Which, mz? Which is bigger? Which is more important? Which is more significant?
And unlike so many decisions one has to make, the answer to this is plain and obvious.
The problem was never deciding what I should do.
The problem, however, is taking that leap into doing something I wouldn't want to do and would avoid at all cost if not for this ONE big reason to do it.
Help?
Friday morning
It would've been nicer if it was raining last night, but this is good too.
Today, greyish clouds litter the otehrwise clear, orange-bluish sky.
Meanwhile, a flock of birds gracefully flew overhead, like a school of fish dragged by the water current.
Niceee....The garden is lush, in its own right.
Lamp post lights are still on.
A certain peacefulness and serenity linger in the air.
So does a mild scent of cat/dog poop. -.-"
There's a certain patch of clouds that look like clay with hues of orange, blue and grey which is unexpectedly beautiful. Pretttyyyyy.....
A stray bird or two flies ahead once in awhile. Separated from the flock, perhaps?
Though everyone is still in their slumber comfort, some insects/birds are wide awake, lively as ever.
An email just popped up. ____ University wants me! Or so it reads. Exclamation mark included. Flattery.
Corrine's telling me to put my records on.
It would've been nicer if it were windier.
It would've been nicer if I had gotten up earlier to savour such tranquil moments.
It would've been nicer if you were here.
It would've been nicer if the chair was more comfortable.
It would've been nicer if I had a steaaaaaming hawt cup of Milo with me here.
A neighbour's aircondioner-generator-thingy buzzes away as the sun's yellow dissolved the orange in the sky.
A flying insect flies pass near me, a neighbour's cat crosses the street.
Everything is just so quiet. As if everything around is waiting and watching the seconds tick by, holding their breathe for who knows what.
Tick-tick-tick...
I just caught the first gentle, uninvited yet welcomed rays of sunlight. A neighbour walks pass with a child in hand, probably no more than three.
A quarter pass 7, and I anticipate this calm serenity to be broken any time soon with chatter from the humans, more passing cars and the sound of TVs on with kids watching 'Barney' or something just as exhilirating. Some odd sounding insect confirms this.
Another car whizzes by. Probably a father out to earn a living, or a mother out to buy grocerries, or a teenager out to college, in hopes of going to Harvard.
The clouds look like puffed cottons of faint yellow. Lamp posts are still on.
Another email just popped up. I can't help but stretch. This chair really is uncomfortable.
Naw, the morning's not perfect. But none would argue that it is still a morning, nonetheless. And mornings like this may spell beginnings. But I'd like to see the changing hues of early morning skies as not fresh beginnings, but a continuation of what we left of yesterday when we retired to bed. A continuation to RESTART anew. Hence, a combination of a continuation and a beginning. An oxymoron, perhaps, though not too complicated but a beautiful one too, if I may humbly add.
But what did we wake up to today?
Where are we going?
Who knows what awaits us?
Is it a day of happiness, joy and laughter? Or a day of sadness, mourning, doom, gloom, racoon, baboon? (xD)
Question all we want, but no amount of guessing will prepare us for what lies ahead.
So what do we do?
We embrace the morning as a friend. Well, maybe we do know what lies ahead, like perhaps, a lecturer you have to face because you didn't finish your assignment. But at the very first few precious seconds where our heads try to adjust itself in realising that a new day beckons and where blurness of vision and mind are felt, I think it would be harmless to breathe in deep and embrace and celebrate the day, whatever comes our way.
Yeap, embrace it despite it's dry, windless, uncomfortable chair-ness, dog/cat smelling poop-ness.
And despite bwargh-bleeeek-ARGGGGGGGH(!!!)-ness that we anticipate, don't forget the ever changing hues of the skies, or the beauty of the simplicity of the sounds that insects/birds make in the morning.
A dog barks as the plants bask in fresh sun and the birds rejoices at this, for some reason. The sky is now a clean mix of pure white and baby blue, save the distant sun colouring a small part of the sky orange almost as if with child-like innocence. I hear a neighbour wattering his/her plants.
Mmmmm.....
But sometimes, the air can be so dry to soil chokes, the chair feels like it's electric-charged, or the smell of poop becomes toxic, and beauty around seems just so insignificant in comparison to the ugliness around, remember the Creator of it all.
And personally, I think that we can't enjoy and appreciate rain unless we experience a drought. Won't experience joy in its totality unless we experience mourning and sadness. A sofa unless we've sat on an uncomfortable seat. Success unless we've experienced failure. Companionship unless we've felt loneliness. Fresh air unless we've smelt poop. You get my drift.
I wonder how many neighbours are up yet.
And mornings, no matter the kind, are just beautiful, because it spells hope, and His mercy, new every morning.
Oh, the lamp posts are finally off.
We live,
We love,
We forgive and never give up.
For the days we are given are gifts from above,
So today we remember to live and to love.
-We live, Superchick
Good morning, world. The day awaits!!! We won't live to see every morning there is. Likewise our loved ones. Hence, carpe diem.
:)
Today, greyish clouds litter the otehrwise clear, orange-bluish sky.
Meanwhile, a flock of birds gracefully flew overhead, like a school of fish dragged by the water current.
Niceee....The garden is lush, in its own right.
Lamp post lights are still on.
A certain peacefulness and serenity linger in the air.
So does a mild scent of cat/dog poop. -.-"
There's a certain patch of clouds that look like clay with hues of orange, blue and grey which is unexpectedly beautiful. Pretttyyyyy.....
A stray bird or two flies ahead once in awhile. Separated from the flock, perhaps?
Though everyone is still in their slumber comfort, some insects/birds are wide awake, lively as ever.
An email just popped up. ____ University wants me! Or so it reads. Exclamation mark included. Flattery.
Corrine's telling me to put my records on.
It would've been nicer if it were windier.
It would've been nicer if I had gotten up earlier to savour such tranquil moments.
It would've been nicer if you were here.
It would've been nicer if the chair was more comfortable.
It would've been nicer if I had a steaaaaaming hawt cup of Milo with me here.
A neighbour's aircondioner-generator-thingy buzzes away as the sun's yellow dissolved the orange in the sky.
A flying insect flies pass near me, a neighbour's cat crosses the street.
Everything is just so quiet. As if everything around is waiting and watching the seconds tick by, holding their breathe for who knows what.
Tick-tick-tick...
I just caught the first gentle, uninvited yet welcomed rays of sunlight. A neighbour walks pass with a child in hand, probably no more than three.
A quarter pass 7, and I anticipate this calm serenity to be broken any time soon with chatter from the humans, more passing cars and the sound of TVs on with kids watching 'Barney' or something just as exhilirating. Some odd sounding insect confirms this.
Another car whizzes by. Probably a father out to earn a living, or a mother out to buy grocerries, or a teenager out to college, in hopes of going to Harvard.
The clouds look like puffed cottons of faint yellow. Lamp posts are still on.
Another email just popped up. I can't help but stretch. This chair really is uncomfortable.
Naw, the morning's not perfect. But none would argue that it is still a morning, nonetheless. And mornings like this may spell beginnings. But I'd like to see the changing hues of early morning skies as not fresh beginnings, but a continuation of what we left of yesterday when we retired to bed. A continuation to RESTART anew. Hence, a combination of a continuation and a beginning. An oxymoron, perhaps, though not too complicated but a beautiful one too, if I may humbly add.
But what did we wake up to today?
Where are we going?
Who knows what awaits us?
Is it a day of happiness, joy and laughter? Or a day of sadness, mourning, doom, gloom, racoon, baboon? (xD)
Question all we want, but no amount of guessing will prepare us for what lies ahead.
So what do we do?
We embrace the morning as a friend. Well, maybe we do know what lies ahead, like perhaps, a lecturer you have to face because you didn't finish your assignment. But at the very first few precious seconds where our heads try to adjust itself in realising that a new day beckons and where blurness of vision and mind are felt, I think it would be harmless to breathe in deep and embrace and celebrate the day, whatever comes our way.
Yeap, embrace it despite it's dry, windless, uncomfortable chair-ness, dog/cat smelling poop-ness.
And despite bwargh-bleeeek-ARGGGGGGGH(!!!)-ness that we anticipate, don't forget the ever changing hues of the skies, or the beauty of the simplicity of the sounds that insects/birds make in the morning.
A dog barks as the plants bask in fresh sun and the birds rejoices at this, for some reason. The sky is now a clean mix of pure white and baby blue, save the distant sun colouring a small part of the sky orange almost as if with child-like innocence. I hear a neighbour wattering his/her plants.
Mmmmm.....
But sometimes, the air can be so dry to soil chokes, the chair feels like it's electric-charged, or the smell of poop becomes toxic, and beauty around seems just so insignificant in comparison to the ugliness around, remember the Creator of it all.
And personally, I think that we can't enjoy and appreciate rain unless we experience a drought. Won't experience joy in its totality unless we experience mourning and sadness. A sofa unless we've sat on an uncomfortable seat. Success unless we've experienced failure. Companionship unless we've felt loneliness. Fresh air unless we've smelt poop. You get my drift.
I wonder how many neighbours are up yet.
And mornings, no matter the kind, are just beautiful, because it spells hope, and His mercy, new every morning.
Oh, the lamp posts are finally off.
We live,
We love,
We forgive and never give up.
For the days we are given are gifts from above,
So today we remember to live and to love.
-We live, Superchick
Good morning, world. The day awaits!!! We won't live to see every morning there is. Likewise our loved ones. Hence, carpe diem.
:)
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams
Put your records on by Corrine Bailey Rae
Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.
Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Got to love that afro hair do.
Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer?
Do what you want to.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
Oh, you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow :)
'Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams.' - LOVE LOVE LOVE that line. So catchy! :)
My day's planned agenda of just emersing myself in a good book for hours after settling some stuff failed miserably.
Instead, had a meeting that went well and surprisingly smooth, enjoyed 3 hours worth of meaningful and encouraging conversations, talked to more people and got really good advice and words of reassurance about what I ought to do.
And had a mild heart attack when someone thought SAM results are out. The cherry on the top is hearing the Corinne Bailey Rae song again and again. Ahhhhh.......Reading can be done some other day. :)
I'd say it's been a good day, yes?
YES. And my mind is more at ease now. :D
Everyday is a gift, but for me, today was extra special and un-ordinary. Like hoping to get your fixed 2nd hand Kancil from the workshop as always only to return with a brand new Ferarri and a coupon that says you are entitled to all the chocolate you can eat for the rest of your life!! Wheee~! Well, something like that :D
Will be letting go better now too. There's so much more to life than this. We can't always control how we feel, but we can choose to grow up and make the right choices, with God of course by our side. :)
Oh it's tomorrow already. Super sleeeeeepy. Will hit the sack after hearing Corrine a few million more times. :D
Thank You God for an awesome day! :)
Au revoir!
Sapphire and faded jeans! I HOPE YOU GET YOUR DREAMS PAL!!! ;D
Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.
Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Got to love that afro hair do.
Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer?
Do what you want to.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
Oh, you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow :)
'Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams.' - LOVE LOVE LOVE that line. So catchy! :)
My day's planned agenda of just emersing myself in a good book for hours after settling some stuff failed miserably.
Instead, had a meeting that went well and surprisingly smooth, enjoyed 3 hours worth of meaningful and encouraging conversations, talked to more people and got really good advice and words of reassurance about what I ought to do.
And had a mild heart attack when someone thought SAM results are out. The cherry on the top is hearing the Corinne Bailey Rae song again and again. Ahhhhh.......Reading can be done some other day. :)
I'd say it's been a good day, yes?
YES. And my mind is more at ease now. :D
Everyday is a gift, but for me, today was extra special and un-ordinary. Like hoping to get your fixed 2nd hand Kancil from the workshop as always only to return with a brand new Ferarri and a coupon that says you are entitled to all the chocolate you can eat for the rest of your life!! Wheee~! Well, something like that :D
Will be letting go better now too. There's so much more to life than this. We can't always control how we feel, but we can choose to grow up and make the right choices, with God of course by our side. :)
Oh it's tomorrow already. Super sleeeeeepy. Will hit the sack after hearing Corrine a few million more times. :D
Thank You God for an awesome day! :)
Au revoir!
Sapphire and faded jeans! I HOPE YOU GET YOUR DREAMS PAL!!! ;D
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Here's to the simple joys in life
- Laughing uproarously.
- Getting an unexpected compliment
- Perfecting that tough exam piano piece
- Getting approval and little nods from a piano teacher which you respect like crazy when you play a piece well
- Watching the breath-taking view from Peaceheaven
- Eating a plate of Cabonara spagetti not knowing what it is, only to hear firecrackers at the first mouthful
- Ditto to Ipoh Hor Fun
- A call from a friend just because.
- Drinking a HOT cup of Milo/Hot Cup up in Genting
- Having heart-to-heart conversations
- Getting to know people whom you thought you'll never get the priviledge of properly talking to.
- Sleeping in on a rainy day after a warm bath
- Finding out how selfless and matured people are
- Crying because a song is just so beautiful and feels so right. (Think 'Fields of Gold' and 'Lucky')
- Being cured of a headache overnight after battling it out the whole day.
- Being cured of a heartache non necessarily overnight after battling it out for some time.
- Watching YouTube vids that turn out to be SUPER AWESHOME when you least expect them to
- Realising that you have become wiser, more matured and could move on with life despite its potholes.
- Seeing the question which you study just before you enter the exam hall printed on the exam paper
- Sleep after a loooooong day
- Hearing the song you love on the radio.
- Knowing that you belong
- Being reminded that God is God
- Pulling off all-nighters with friends to study/finish assignments
- Understanding that one's success and failures do not define a person.
- Knowing that life goes on even if you seem to be losing everytime.
- Seeing people being just so humble and down to earth.
- Seeing your room clean after trying to tidy it for ages
- Watching a movie thinking it's going to be shallow only to find that it has more depth than you thought possible. Think 'The Devil wears Prada'.
- Finding something that you had lost just before you reeeeeeeally needed it
- The blinking orange MSN light from someone you enjoy talking to
- Attending a Jim Brickman concert almost spontaneously :)
- Knowing that you matter to someone that matters to you
- Knowing that it's okay even if you don't matter to someone that matters to you. May involve...letting go, but it doesn't mean that you care any less.
- Eating chocolattteeeeeee!!!!!!!!
Remember: Actions speak louder than words.
Friday, November 20, 2009
And then you realise.
1.44am
MSN-ing with a couple of friends.
As the conversation continues as I type this, I can't help but reflect on myself.
And again, I realise something about myself:
I have a looooooong way to go. SUCH a long way.
I feel humbled. I'm thinking a lot. And this little thing comes to mind. I've put it behind me now, but I still think about my 08' and about their 08', knowing where they were last year and where I was last year. And well...mm. Let's just say that the thought still lingers lah...a little. I guess.
Well, I guess the important thing now is to move on from here...with humility.
Being herself,
Queen Vague.
MSN-ing with a couple of friends.
As the conversation continues as I type this, I can't help but reflect on myself.
And again, I realise something about myself:
I have a looooooong way to go. SUCH a long way.
I feel humbled. I'm thinking a lot. And this little thing comes to mind. I've put it behind me now, but I still think about my 08' and about their 08', knowing where they were last year and where I was last year. And well...mm. Let's just say that the thought still lingers lah...a little. I guess.
Well, I guess the important thing now is to move on from here...with humility.
Being herself,
Queen Vague.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Letting....go.
Letting go, because it's the right thing to do. Not the most pleasant, but right.
Probably have to let go plenty of more times in the future too. Ladidaaa~! Haha. xD
Life goes on!! Hard to believe, but it does. It did before, and it will this time round. :D
Every cloud has a silver lining. Just haven't found it yet. May never will. But I'm pretty sure it's there. And the cup's half full. Somhow, somehow. IT'S HALF FULL, YOU HEAR!
:)
*shmile*
Let His will be done.
Take care, all the best and ..... farewell, dear person. Will miss you.
Suddenly this one particular song seems so apt. heh.
Edit: This is harder than I thought.
I dreamt about pies yesterday and am positive that I dreamt of Jimmy Newtron's dad and his kind of pie. Woke up this morning to an apple cake that looks like a pie but isn't a pie! Well, close enough la right. 'Twas my birthday cake, I think? Hahaha xD
Probably have to let go plenty of more times in the future too. Ladidaaa~! Haha. xD
Life goes on!! Hard to believe, but it does. It did before, and it will this time round. :D
Every cloud has a silver lining. Just haven't found it yet. May never will. But I'm pretty sure it's there. And the cup's half full. Somhow, somehow. IT'S HALF FULL, YOU HEAR!
:)
*shmile*
Let His will be done.
Take care, all the best and ..... farewell, dear person. Will miss you.
Suddenly this one particular song seems so apt. heh.
Edit: This is harder than I thought.
I dreamt about pies yesterday and am positive that I dreamt of Jimmy Newtron's dad and his kind of pie. Woke up this morning to an apple cake that looks like a pie but isn't a pie! Well, close enough la right. 'Twas my birthday cake, I think? Hahaha xD
For the clueless
Bwahahahahahaa!!
What should I do ar?
For the time being, smile? Hehe. :D
Did you know? Do you know about this thing now?
Do I know about THAT other thing? I think I do.
Yeaps.
What should I do ar?
For the time being, smile? Hehe. :D
Did you know? Do you know about this thing now?
Do I know about THAT other thing? I think I do.
Yeaps.
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